I'm the one that people always expect to run things, to give advice, and to handle problems. I don't seek to have authority or anything, that's just my role in life. I accept that now, even though it sometimes annoys me when people become overly dependent on me. Recently, I've realized that not only do people need me to do these things, I need to do them. It's just the purpose I serve in life. I also accept that, and I'm glad I know what my purpose is so young in life (I'm 18).

The problem is, I really feel the need to have somebody I can connect with. I need somebody who is on my own level, somebody who won't be so needy, somebody with whom I can be co-dependent. I haven't exactly found it yet.

I've just been thinking about it all lately. I'm going to college this summer, and I know I'll be able to fulfill my first need, but I don't know about my second. Sure, the two don't go together at all, but I can find them in different people... can't I?