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Look i know im a geek and freak and all that shit
I know i am a werido that you guys feel you have to make an effort with dont think that i dont know that, because i do
i feel it
i dont think you know how much you can hurt me sometimes
by your actions, words and expressions.
I suppose it hurts more because i look up to you guys
but why should i look up to you, you are no better than me.
you all change when you with each other and then when your own on your own
your wonderful, a good friend.
But when you with other ppl i see you change and you are so mean to me
its like you cannot be yourself or maybe you cannot be yourself about me
either way it hurts more because i know you talk about me and even worse still
i can hear you talking about me.
All that i do for each of you and the way i get treated back makes you
think i would have learnt my lesson by now, but i'm not that type of person
i will still treat you with repsect and look up to you now even after
how much youve made me cry. That is the power you have over me.
I just wish i dont hurt so much inside because of it.
I love having friends but i wish i didnt come at this cost...at the cost of my happiness.
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2 comments (post a new comment)You need to let these people go. If they don't treat you with respect, if they ridicule you behind your back, and treat you like you're unworthy, then they ARE NOT friends of any kind. You need to realize that you're not a geek or a freak or a weirdo. If anybody in this situation is a freak, it's those people who call themselves 'friends'. You deserve a whole lot better in a friendship than someone who is nice when you're alone together but yet mocks you when others are around. I know what it feels like to look up to people who treat me like dirt and ostracize me. I know what it's like to feel like I'M the problem, not them, and to continue hoping and idolizing them. But in the end it's the other party that holds the blame, the supposed "friends" who treat you like a chump. Drop those people and find real friends. I know it might not seem like that's possible, but believe me when I say that there are plenty of good friends out there. You just have to be patient and find them. You can't wait for good friends to come your way. You have to take the initiative. And it will be well worth your while. Having a good friend is one of the most important things in life, but you don't have one now.
Posted by Anonymous_Friend on Thursday, 05/31/07 - 9:39pm
Please keep your head up. Its weird, I have used very similar words as your just posted, only about a man I once dated.
But do you know what? At the end of the day, I know my feelings are genuine and true, and that I would not stoop to that level, and that makes me proud, even though emotionally it hurts so bad because I just want him to be kind to me at all times.
I idolize no one, but I always felt - he was better than me. And I know that is so silly, especially given his nice guy/not so nice guy behaviour in the past, and given that I dont think anyone should be labelled better than anyone - but I cant help it.
Listen, just be true to yourself, stay a positive and kind hearted person, it may be a silent victory but it is a victory nonetheless.
And geeks are cool.
Posted by anonymous on Friday, 06/1/07 - 2:25am