...i am starting to fall for someone who I see more hope in than you. she has so much in common with me, and the time I have with her as a friend is a reminder that I am giving up a lot of the things that could make my life better. I am going to end up like my members of my family, afraid of failing and challenging myself, and you aren't helping that process. Yet I am so scared of you being hurt by everything- i know how much you love me, but i don't know if i am what you need in life to be happy. i am afraid that you are going to go back to your old self, being vulnerable and being hurt again in stupid ways, and that really troubles me because that was a reason I felt attracted to you- to build you into someone stronger. but you're not a project, you're a lover, and my feelings are kicking me around right now because my dreams have become a reality now, and i'm not sure if we can survive with that reality.