I've nearly forgotten everything you and I used to do, going to theme parks, or being kids. When you dumped me and went out with her, you made me feel worthless, you made me feel like I was your back burner once again, when all I wanted was for you to realize that I loved you. After writing you that letter in my own blood, my life got better without you somehow, and I don't know how I saw the world in a different light but I wasn't sad anymore. I didn't feel worthless anymore.

Whenever I see you by chance in public or at a party, I always avoid your eyes because the only thought on my mind is how beautiful they always were when we were close to each other. I'll never forget your hazel eyes and what shame I've put upon us both. I pretend not to care what you think of me now, but the truth is...if I could kiss you one last time before I start college...maybe our "spark" would come back. In 7th grade, I wanted to be the woman you married, now I want to be someone else's wife.

But know this, you were my first love and yes, I am still loyal to you. I'm sorry for ripping us apart, but, you never saw the pain in my eyes when you touched her the way you touched me.