Number One: He wanted it. And I thought I did, too. Now I know better. I know what I wanted was for him to want me.

Number Two: It was because I loved you.

Number Three: We were so drunk. You're his best friend. We both know it was a mistake.

Number Four: I was so upset. I was mad and let myself get carried away.

Number Five: No means no. I told you no and you wouldn't listen.

To my Number Two: You asked me last weekend and I told you the truth. You've messed up, too, I know. But it's still hard to forgive and move on.

But, Number Two, I love you. Still. Always. j
I wish you would have been my first, and I want you to be my last.