I fell in love with my best friend. He's now my boyfriend. He uses crystal meth. Needles. I used but I'm clean and sober now and I never thought about using needles. He's not the same person I met and fell inlove with anymore. He's neglectful, and he never keeps his promises, just full of empty ones. I'm worried I made the biggest mistake of my life. I want my best friend back. I can't and wont leave him. Instead I am settling for less because thats all he can give me. Sometimes I think my boyfriend took my my best friend put him in a spoon, added some water and did him in a shot. I hate nightmares.





Ps.He's nonchalantly mentioned shooting me up too a few times. I don't even do drugs anymore. And that hurts more then anything I've ever done to myself.


(don't tell anyone)