I have been with my fiance for two years. He has cheated on me, lied to me, forgot my birthday, the list goes on and on. Recently we had an argument and he beat me till my arms were bruised to the point of being blue and black, and choked me till I had almost passed out. He apologized & said this was his "monster" and he would never let it happen again. He had never hit me before. He tells me he is going to change & will never do it again, but I hate him for all of the things he has done.
I hate the fact that he treated his slut of an ex girlfriend better than he has treated me: the woman who has been with him through everything and treats him better than any other girlfriend ever has. Well If I'm so good then why has he hurt only me and not the others? Why not that girl, why me? That's what I get for not cheating on him like she did.
We are getting married in 2 weeks and all I want to do is kill him. I go from being fine to wanting to rip my hair out and run. I love him but I am so miserable and I can't stop obsessing over our past.
What would you do if you loved someone and were in this situation? How can you get over the past.. or know when its time to leave?

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10 comments (post a new comment)Do NOT marry him! If he is beating you and treating you like this BEFORE you make a life long commitment you are going to be in for a long road. Be careful, get out the relationship before you still can..his "Monster" can come out at anytime and at as often as it wants...and if he knows that he has you until "death do you part" then it'll come out more often. Be careful. Don't go through with the marrage. Please.
Posted by Michelle on Sunday, 04/6/08 - 12:33am
dump him. i know its hard. but you HAVE to dump him!!! you will find someone sooo much better.
people wont be upset if you dump him, they probably already know that hes an asshole.
dump him before its too late
Posted by dump him on Sunday, 04/6/08 - 8:37pm
NOW is the time to leave and you should know it!He is a cheater,a lier and an ABUSER!His "Monster" isn't going anywhere!It's what he is and always will be!People like that never change,don't fool yourself!LEAVE NOW!Things can only get worse after the marriage!Nobody (including YOU)should go through a life like that!Just GO!
Posted by L. on Monday, 04/7/08 - 3:39am
he will kill you and rape your children.run.
Posted by jebus on Monday, 04/7/08 - 7:49am
Get out. It's already way worse than it should ever have gotten. You deserve much better than that, and you'll be able to find it once you kick him to the curb.
Don't you dare stay with someone who disrespects you so horribly.
Posted by ribbonred on Monday, 04/7/08 - 11:22pm
Dear you're an idiot if you marry this loser.
But if you hate yourself that much, go nuts.
You won't be the last fool to marry a man that hates her.
Posted by Nacho Mamma on Tuesday, 04/8/08 - 11:55am
please don't marry him - it's the biggest mistake you can make. please don't for your own safety. he's a psychopath
Posted by pls on Friday, 04/25/08 - 3:07pm
I've heard the same thing many times- "It's not me", and "I'll never do it again". These are lies. I've met many women who have been abused. YOu need to get out as soon as possible to a 'safe place'- a friend, a family member, a shelter. Be brave.
Posted by eli on Tuesday, 09/2/08 - 1:30am
Maybe if you sucked the dick,things would be better for you.
Posted by choad on Tuesday, 09/2/08 - 2:25pm
please dont marry him im stuck in an abusive relationship just too scared to leave
x
Posted by natalie on Saturday, 11/15/08 - 10:00pm