This is not a whining about life post its just a reminded to people who think or have gone through what i did.
I was introduced to pain killers by my doctor and the constant use turned to abuse,for my thinking it was fun to get this weird rush whenever i overdose and in no time i went from 2 pills to 5 pills a day,with all the good feeling these pills used to bring it brought back 10,000 bad feelings whenever the effect is gone and so the habit started growing for 2 years of this daily ritual,how did all that effect my life?One break down in a complicated relationship brought me to this,and cause of it i almost lost my life and people i care about the most,i turned into homephobic,internetholic,whatever u wanna call it..i started to get used to staying indoors that going out seemed the weirdest thing in the world to me and so it went on and on the morphine was too strong and my body got used to it that even when things were so right and even when i got back the relationship that i lost i just couldnt stop till one day i lost my gf AGAIN and realized that im not going anywhere with this i got off my ass and started acting out,it was the hardest thing in the world,and i had a full hour of none stop crying cause of the guilt and the same question that repeats over and over in your head "How did i end up here".After emotionally draining myself from all the guilty feelings and forgiving myself from almost killing myself,i got busy with sports,being more aroung my family and more opened up to my friends,im finally starting to live like normal people again and i feel so dumb for the moments i thought of ending my life thinking it would make things better.

If you are on drugs or used to pain killers no matter what the rush ur getting is making u feel,learn that it might end your life before it even starts (assuming you're a teenager like me)please seek help,do NOT give a damn about anyone telling u woo crying is for cunts and blah blah if ur a guy or a girl crying DOES help its like taking a shower after a long run,it will refresh your soul and give u a better feeling thats if u cry for the right reasons and face yourself without ass kissing or excuses just say this is who i am now,why am i here and how do i get our of this.
I hope this helps someone,anyone and remember no ones life is perfect its how we deal with problems that seperates people between happy and sad ones.