I've ruined every single friendship I've ever had. I'm a complete loser there is nothing good about me I'm completely unlikeable and I give up.
I haven't left the apartment in two weeks and no one has noticed. I finally realize that the best thing I can do for everyone is to go the hell away.
I hate feeling horrible and sad and miserable all the time. I am sorry I'm depressed. I am sorry that I can't fix it.
I am sorry I'm such a loser.