I started gaining weight when I was about 10. I was never obese but I was big enough. I was at my heaviest when I was about 13 and my bestfriends were the pretty popular girls at school, I started making excuses to stop going out with them after school because I was so insecure the thought of leaving my house and letting other people see me scared me. I started losing weight at 15 and now I have about 10lbs to go before I reach my goal weight.

But I've lost all my friends. I've got new friends but each of them has their own group of friends and I can't ask if I can tag along. I feel so lonely and I'm still not happy with my weight, I feel like I'm never going to reach my goal. I feel like no one will ever love me, I feel inferior to girls with nice bodies, I feel like my parents look down on me. I don't want to eat but I can't stop binging.

I'm scared I'm never going to be happy.