my family acts like they really despise me.
but they tell me they love me.
well my mom did last night.
and my dad hasnt in years.
im just sixteen.
comparing me to my perfect younger sister isnt helping.
its actually slowly making me socially akward, depressed, and suicidal.
and i dont know if you knew.
but yes.
because of all the years telling me im "getting big"
or "could have better grades" and her telling me i was ugly fat and got mediocre grades.
i would just like to point out, that in the future i might just be a raging alcoholic, perhaps in a padded room of a physch ward, or maybe in a maximum security prison cell. i dont really know.
but i do know if this all continues.
with your "lock down" idea of controlling me,
then im getting serious and leaving.



just like your other daughter amanda did to you 10 years ago.