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Right now I am having a conversation with a man that I met online. He is 34, I am 17. We are talking about sex, but actually about me going to visit him to have sex. I have done this before, done the talking anyway so many times about having sex with men even though I am a virgin... but this is the first time I am actually thinking about going to a man's house, a man i barely even know to have sex with him... to give up my virginity. I feel the fear of it, of doing this with a stranger, of ultimately driving out to have sex and not telling anyone. My heart is beating faster as I look up how close he really is to me. It is like a rush, to know that I could, and that I could get away with it too. That is where the excitement of it all comes in.
But... shouldn't this be wrong to me? Where is the voice that tells me I am wrong... that this is wrong. I wish I could here it.
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5 comments (post a new comment)just a few words: don not do this.
it is dangerous, you will regret it, and maybe this is not about sex, or virginity, but about self esteem. are you just doing this to validate yourself? or is it out of wanton desire?
Posted by empathy on Monday, 03/26/07 - 9:14am
It seems to me that you have a healthy sexual fantasy of having sex with a perfect stranger, and that others viewing this as wrong and so having to keep it a secret may actually make the experience more exciting. However, it would be dangerous to act out your fantasy, and I would suggest you don't meet up with anyone you meet online purely for sex. There are and always will be those manipulative people willing to take advantage of others who are naieve. I'm 17, but I would never consider what you're considering. Better to keep the fantasy in your head or online, masturbate to it or whatever to satisfy yourself, and realise that your imagination can do more things than anybody could ever do in reality :)
Posted by HelpfulEcho on Tuesday, 03/27/07 - 2:47pm
Please don't do this. I really mean it. I was in a similar situation. I just wanted to be wanted. Online a 32 year old man and I started talking. Soon it lead to talking about sex. It was wonderful to see how hard he was trying. How much he liked me. I borrowed my parents car and told them I was visiting a friend. I was a virgin, and they trusted me completely. It was too easy. I got there and was paralyzed with fear. When I met him I immediately regretted it. He had so many expectations. I could see it in his eyes. We sat one the couch. He got me some wine. I wanted to be anywhere but there. I told him I couldn’t do it, but he wouldn’t let me go. Told me I was just nervous and I needed to relax. I tried to leave, but he stood up and told me no. He raped me. Twice. I left when he was done threatening me. There is nothing I regret more in my life. I am amazed I drove home I was shaking so bad. Men like that online will not respect you. There is only one reason they are online talking to you. To take advantage. Please Please I beg you don’t meet a stranger. You are worth so much more than him.
Posted by Anonymous on Thursday, 03/29/07 - 2:43am
wat if he rapes u?? and no one will know where u are i mean he could kill u. he might say that he loves u but u dont know if u luv someone till uve realy met them
Posted by dont! on Saturday, 05/12/07 - 3:24am
Don't do this, the fantasy and the reality are incredibly different.
Posted by nooo on Sunday, 05/13/07 - 6:09am