Confessions

I want to confess that i am a angry and foolish man. I am controlled by my emotions and temper. In the occurrence of my temper i do not hesitate to harm anybody even my loved one and parents. My parents are ideal, loving and god like parents which only few lucky people in the world get. In my temper i don't hesitate to harm them also which makes me believe that i wouldn't even hesitate to harm god if given the opportunity in occurrence of temper. Also i harbor hatred for all human kind. This is because i was abused and badly hurt by few people when i was small and that made me believe all humanity deserves my vengeance. This is now i believe to be wrong and anger and vengeance is subtle enemy which is protected by my ego and effects my loved ones more rather than my enemies. I have come to realization that my own anger and hatred is my enemy not those people. I have been harboring lust, hatred, vengeance and anger in my mind which is harmful to me and to others which are close and dear to me.

I am foolish and arrogant person with a devastating amount of EGO. My ego makes me believe that i am superior to all even though i remember to have done nothing to deserve such an big ego. This is some sort of disease. I ask god to take away my anger and foolishness, lust and hatred and bestow with me with love and compassion to all beings. I also request lord to help people having the disease like me.

If people have disease like me they do need help and i request god that they might find someone who takes them out of it and towards love, compassion and god.

Amen