Step daughter attraction
Posted On Friday, June 25, 2010
I have a bit of a dillema.
I have been with my wife for 2 years now and love her dearly.
She has a wonderful teenage daughter who is essentially my step daughter and we have always got along and She has always been fun and playful and full of life.
I like to think of me as a normal healthy male.
Over the last 6 months or so, my step daughter which I won't name has started to develop into A very pretty young lady.
She is very petite and has started to grow fast.
She has noticed boys lately but does not have a boyfreind. She does seem a little shy around boys too. She also wants to be a doctor when older and although young, she takes her studies seriously. Maybe too seriously but we can't complain I guess. She still has a lot of time with freinds though.
Firstly, let me say i am not interested in hurting anyone and i am a very loving and caring person. I also do not see myself as a pervert but am having trouble dealing with some emotions lately. I have become attracted to her lately and although I would never do anything due to a few reasons, I feel bad about my feelings.
I would never touch her or any young lady. It's just not right.
Over the last 4 months or so I have noticed her more as when she gets home from school, she normally changes out of her school uniform and into normal clothes.
Most of the time, she doesn't wear a bra when at home.
Some of the tops she wears are quite thin and although not tight tops, you can often see her nipples which are quite puffy poking through. This is especially the case with a few white and in particular this thin light yellow top she has that just seems to cling to her breasts and show a perfect shape and nipple outline.
I hate to admit it but her breasts are firm and perky and it's hard not to take a peek.
For example, When I help her with her homework , she often comes to me and I will be watching tv and she will kneel down on the floor and lean over a bit watching how I work maths out etc. As they are fairly loose tops normally, I actually get a full view of her breasts and nipples as with a loose top and no bra, Its hard not to notice. You can often see straight down her top.
I do obviously make sure she doesn't see me looking.
This is also the case after she has a shower and gets ready for bed. She wears her bed clothes and you can also notice her breasts and nipples through her shirts. They are normal sometimes and sometimes they puff up a fair bit and get pokey. They seem very sensitive.
I smoke ciggarettes unfortunately and sometimes when talking, I go outside for a smoke as u don't smoke inside and she often follows me and tells me about her day etc. Now that it's becoming winter and colder (our winter is not cold by your standards) over here now, her nipples are still puffy but get much more puffy and harder.
My wife works night shift so in the afternoons and most nights, I do the father thing and make dinner or help with the homework.
She walks naturally from the shower to her room in just a towel. And sometimes in a bra and pants if getting ready to go out.
I have always been easy going and try to be reasonable. We go away 4x4 offroad once a month or so and she has been hassling me for a long time for me to teach her how to drive manual. I thought she was too young to learn but my wife insisted it was ok as it's offroad and rarely any cars and it's not a public road.
So I let her sit on my lap to show her but so I am still in control if needed.
That was a big mistake as it's often bumpy offroad. You can guess what happened. I got hard without meaning to. I felt terrible. I know it's normal if someone is bouncing around on a mans private area that this will happen but it's my young step daughter!!
I was ashamed and i think it would be quite obvious to her that something got hard. I don't know if she would fully understand but I'm sure she would feel something hard.
I was worried that she would feel something and my wife was going to come in over the next few weeks crazy at me for that. But she never found out.
To my surprise, we have gone many times since then and it's become normal practice to let her sit on my lap and drive some. I honestly cannot help getting hard everytime. I try to stop it but I can't. It just happens.
She always wants to drive. I have to admit, as bad as I feel, it does obviously feel good too.
When i finally get used to it and I go soft, She bloody wriggles around trying to get comfortable and that just makes it happen all over again.
I really don't think young girls fully understand just how much a male is affected by womens bodies.
She also likes to Sunbake which is normal I guess. I just find it hard when she sunbakes in her bikini and her bikini top undone to avoid tan lines (facing down so i dont see anything) as her small bottom is just so cute.
There has been few times lately that I have been outside watering the garden or taking washed clothes off the line just after the sun goes down. We have a two story house and her bedroom is upstairs. And we back onto native parkland so the houses are very far apart. I have noticed her light come on in her room and I have noticed her getting changed in her room or trying on different clothes as girls do. Her blinds are open and She doesn't realise I am out there.
So I have seen her undress to complete nude quite regularly.
Sometimes it's trying on new clothes and other times it's getting ready for bed after a shower.
When she is trying on new clothes, quite often she will try one lot on then undress and try another on. This can be for quite a while. You know what girls are like with their clothes.
Mostly she changes or does her hair in front of her mirror. The mirror is right in front of her window which is quite a large window and I can see everything. I'm literally only metres away.
I feel bad but I can tell you that the plants get a long water sometimes!!! I just can't seem to force myself to go inside the house. I'm curious.
I don't know what to say to her or my wife. I don't want to lose the freindship I have with my step daughter and also don't want to cause trouble with my wife.
What makes it harder is my wife goes braless at home. Not at work but always at home so it's normal to her.
I am really writing here to get it off my chest but to also ask what I should do, if anything. Also is it normal for an older male to have an attraction to a younger girl. In no way would I ever touch. It's just not me to do so but I feel ashamed still that I enjoy seeing her and I do get aroused and I feel terrible. It's mixed feelings.
I know it's wrong but I do look forward to the braless and wondering what top she will wear each day and going to 4x4 driving and watering the garden.
I really do feel bad but I can't help my attraction. What can I do??
I know 100% that I would never do anything. It's simply enjoying the view but I still feel bad in myself.
Thanks for any input.
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