dan I still love . . .

I wish that we were communicating but without either of us knowing who the other is....this may sound crazy but it does take a bit out of the vulnerability part of talking again. kind of similar to telling a dirty secret in the dark.

should we start messaging? or will that lead to more pain? that's why I stopped in the first place and I hate that you can seem to talk to me and handle it all while I can't. I doubt you care as much about me otherwise you would feel just as out of control.

?right?