i want her to share with me

i have an online friend who i love. she is not into me and i am not even the sex person she desires. but i can not get close to her the way i really want to. i love her as a friend more then i love the flesh friends i have/had. i just want to be there for her and make her feel half as good as she lights up my day. i feel stupid like i dont know what friends share and the level the friendship should be. but i know she knows i am honest, i am as honest as they come but i consider peoples feelings so i know boundaries. she can trust me but she doesnt. sometimes i just want to stop talking with her because i know and she has said we wont always talk. i think if i just stop now it wont hurt as bad if she leaves me. but this is what i think she thinks. that i will just leave. i know someone turned on her really bad once online. hurt her with information she gave them. i will be so alone if i cut myself off from her.
is it so weird to love my friend? she is miles away its not like i want to have sex with her, thats not my drive. its to love her, make her so happy and do so many things she cant do or help her see she can do SO much.
this is not some lame 3 day friendship. have known her for over a year now.

be patient and see it through to the end no matter what. or end it now?